is nice look up be happy
then
bad
sick
hurt
nasty feelings of death screw worms and stoamch illnesses
i'm feelin emty
WHAT'S! WRONG WITH ME
lazyer than usual
excersize does not help
the drugs don't help
friends provide a small gap where everything is forgotten
then
in the middle of it
i feel that old familar sting
tearing up my inside
making them my outsides
i stand here
a former shell of self
touch me cut me woman tell me i'm urs
make me feel like i'm living again
take me away from this grave of nothingness
give me pain and lust
give me hate and racsism
give me family and peace of mind
give me a sign
give me a meaning
give me a place to rest
for when i sleep is the only time i feel peace

Decent. I could add to that if you like. I may have something somewhat along those lines.

You left out the games and anime as a means of escape from reality, hehe.

PeAcE.